13 minutes. I’m so embarassed about being afraid of dogs and I’ve mostly got over it, I love living beside the park now and seeing them all BUT there are 2 dogs there that have it in for me, this is the third and worst time with this wee guy. I was standing there literally frozen, panic rising, and his owner just ambling along, no rush, it gets to the point where he’s running into my legs before she arrives and leashes him, and I’m so freaked out and ashamed that I said “sorry”. Sorry your dog is so stressed out by me walking the other direction, 20 metres away. I just immediately go into this shame place where I think the behaviour is evidence that I’m a bad person, because dog people always say that dogs not liking you is a red flag. But most of them do like me, even if I don’t always know what to do with that. My dad instilled a fear of (big) dogs in me as a kid, which was then transferred to all dogs (and frankly, dog owners) when I was bitten in the park and the owner was unapologetic, just saying that the dog didn’t like 1. children and 2. running, so seeing a running child set him off. So I don’t have much faith in people’s ability to manage their perts.

Late posting this because I put off making it until I absolutely had to go to bed, so no time to scan last night.